Thank You Wayne for your kind words.Very sorry about your father.It must be very hard for you and your family.My Dad pasted away from a brain anyoirism (go figure!!! I still can't spell it right.) while I was at the lunch table.I have lost several good friends from suicide and to this day I still kick myself cause I think I could have done more.The reality is that I could not have.Thats what makes it so tough.Don't be afraid to talk to your family even after all these years.It won't resolve anything but you will feel better inside.
Thanks Again
KAP54
Ya Gotta Keep on Keepin On

Be Strong

Peace KAP54

Have you thought about putting your feelings down on paper?

Yes indeed Kap54,

I know the feeling well. Me Dad was 52 years when he passed! A great character.
He loved old clocks/ radios and cameras. He would spread newspapers on our big kitchen table and take one apart to fix it. We sat for hours and watched him. He also made us the most amazing kaleidoscopes. We would have to roll tiny pieces of  coloured paper  for them. Magnificent shapes and images they made.  He taught us all our history in songs. He also taught me how to make handpainted firescreens
He taught me how to cut/sew and make all my own clothes.
He bought a big tape recorder when we were kids, brown reel to reel. He would then prop up the microphone and we would have great fun singing and listening to the playback. My brother has put this material on CDS for us. Wonderful to still hear him and me Mam singing.
He was a wonderful Dad. We keep his memory alive by always speaking of him.

Happy Fathers Day to all

Thanks for the Memories Kap54.

hi kap54 i lost my dad in 2006 he sufered with illness for 7yrs so it was a kind of release for him that it was finally over and for us having to see him sufer and knowing we could'nt do nothing to releave his pain,we miss him loads ,i sit with my mother every night to listen to her, memories give a few words of comfort ,and to hear her request that when she goes she does'nt want reviving ,she won't see a doctor,she's got bad legs,keps getting pains in her chest,puts on a brave face every day ,only family that keeps her going,i know she wants to go join dad ,and we have to hide our felings so as not to upset her,but its something we must all bear with any loved ones.
a great song....stay cool

thanks kap54 i went round last night she was in tears her friend had died she was ninety so a good age ,but she tries to cling on to what she's got left,she's the last of her family even though she's got us all the ones from her era are diminishing and she's feeling more alone cause she got no-one to relate to.....stay cool

hi kap54

i was a bit luckier than most of you, my dad was 77, a sudden and fatal heart attack, good for him, but you get the feeling you never had the chance to say all the things you wanted to.
sometimes when i smell a pipe or a cigar, i smile because i feel he's there watching and i hope approving. none the less, a sensitive and emotive work, remember they arn't really gone as long as you remember them.

phill

Thanks Phil and Last Rebel.
It was a tough song to write.I have few memories of Dad and I struggle to remember him.At the same time I struggle to forget the emotional side which has taken its toll on me.At that time in my life there was no such thing as therapy like today.I wish there was but, this is the deck life dealt and so I continue to play.
Thanks Again
KAP54