That's the real spirit my beloved doll. It is right Lena, isn't it? I am the first to admit that my topic is in fact a VERY about LUXE TOPIC.
But I posted it, because it is a time we can dream loud, and dreams are dreams. It is a time to consider the values in our lives, REFLECTIONS of my life, and you about your life.
Since I am sitting here at home, in 2 days (7th) I will be ALREADY 52, and despite everything, I may consider myself as an happy man. There are lots of things I can't do no more, like going to a concert, and certain where you have to stand right. I miss a lot of things, like no more ski, no ice skating and too much activities I loved.
On the other hand I am real happy.
Happy with all the opportunities I've got, to become a Medical Doctor, despite the fact that in my first year my father died suddenly just before the tests. To be blessed with a fantastic mother, who sacrificed a lot, to give each of us the opportunity to study. I'm blessed having a very good memory, THAT I could use every day to help others, to use when studying, and so having more than enough time to have a sort of R&R life. Sometimes, it was a curse too, RESTLESS MIND.
I hope that I was a good doc for my patients.
I feel happy to see people and I did every possible thing for my patients. I am happy (and hope these people too) that I could help financially. Also I often (about 50% of all patients) asked a lot less money to people having it difficult, I even wasn't ashamed to give money to some people, like I did a few times, but this I will never forget: giving 200€ to a family with so many debts, they didn't have money for food, electricity shut of, using candles and 4 kids, I never wanted a thank you, and I felt real bad if I didn't help.
If I should mention how much money (= White Penguin, all the $$ together).Yes Doll, there is still a lot, more than you think, poor people, ashamed to go out their doors. I hope I was a good man, despite the bad things. If I should start again, I should probably ACT the same way, maybe not the same profession. That is the spirit of Christmas, analysing your self, happiness making right what was wrong, the value of a family, try to live, even in my condition. I just regret that almost ALL time went to my work and destroying my private life. There is no need for THIS BIG BUSINESS= ALL YOU NEED IS A HEART, WITH LOVE and NO HATE. THAT IS CHRISTMAS FOR ME. I found HARMONY, STABILITY, only a relation is missing.
But let us dream too. It don't hurt.
I just hope that people will remember me how I was, who I was, I just loved my work. I only wanted the best for "my people"
What I do regret is that my private life was a mess, working 80-90 hours a week, my daughter grew up and will be 20 years at Christmas, and I wasn't there for her. You can't turn back the time. Am I a liar? Am I a bad person? because I didn't give her enough time? After my divorce, she was free to go, in stead of "THE EVERY 2 WEEKS I HAVE TO SEE HER PROBLEM" she and me we had other solutions, I have seen MORE THAN ENOUGH while working.
[color=blue]- GITAARDOCPHIL SAIS: TO CONQUER DEAD, YOU HAVE TO DIE[/color] AND [color=blue] we are born to die[/color]
- MY GUITAR PLAYS EVERY STYLE = BLUES, ROCK, METAL, so I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO PLAY IT.
[color=blue]Civilization began the first time an angry person cast a word instead of a rock.[/color]