Yesterday, a letter.

Yesterday, we both said a lot.
Picking scabs and throwing rocks.
You set boundaries that I don’t like, I will not lie.
I LOVE YOU and that I will no longer hide.   
I entered your room against your line,
I have to tell you I love you no matter the cost.
I tell you this even though I am lost.

You are tired of me saying so
I can’t help myself, I don’t want you to go.
But it’s too late because you left me long before,
We pushed each other away and now you long to walk out that door.

I want you to stay. I’d like you to want that too,
You say you cannot/will not.
I understand not wanting to get hurt again, I understand the fear of a repeating cycle.

I’m on the gerbil wheel
I know this is so.
I should get off because you have let me go.
You want me to move on,
Find a new life.
I can’t do that, for you are my wife.

For better or worse that was our vowel.
So many as we, have forsaken that,
And thrown in the towel.

You get upset that I will not stop
These word I write, I know you will drop.
Yet I must give them to you,
My heart feels like it will drop.

Please do not lock your door,
I must tell you I love you,
Because one day,
I know I will not see you,
I won’t be able to say,
I love you so much,
Drive safe,
And have a good day.