I fear this will be used against me

I fear this will be used against me yet I will write it anyway.

Man, how do I even express anything anymore?

You told me there was no hope of future.

I said thank you.

We had a wonderful evening of drinks and intimacy.

I said thank you.

I say thank you,

Because you don’t want to hear I LOVE YOU.

And Yet,

I had to say it this morning.

I do not wish to diminish the beauty of last night,

The relaxation on your face, sitting at the table and the smile that was with it.

A real smile no doubt,

was there any sadness hiding behind it?

The love we made ,

Make no mistake on what I gave.

I gave you my love, or I might as well have not been in there.

Waking up this morning,  I had to say

I LOVE YOU

Though you don’t believe it.

Is this really what you want?

You say you are not “in Love” with me.

I fear this will be used against me 

Making last night the last kiss of our life?

You know how I feel. 

You tell me things will be better.

I know how you feel,

and I think you may have doubts.

Your stubborn pride not letting you be,

You’re digging in.

I just want you to see. 

You say I am not be the guy for you anymore, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, But neither is he.

I fear this will be used against me

Yet I say it any how

My love is true, although I was not good at showing it, neither were you.

I know we cannot burry the past. 

But we could accept it and smile at last.

You told me there was no hope of future.

I said thank you.

We had a wonderful evening of drinks and intimacy.

I say thank you.

I say thank you,

Because you don’t want to hear I LOVE YOU.

and yet i had to say it to you.