I wonder

Wrote this recently but is still in the editing process.

I sit and my mind whirls with so many troubles, and my heart is filled with fear.
I have no idea how this shall all play out, what am I supposed to do on my own?
I have no comfort nor peace of mind, so I pray hoping He will always be near.
A perfect life, an everlasting satisfying happiness some have never known.

I wonder about so many things that have been strangers to me.
I’ve watched others around and see their light of life shine,
Wishing I had it too. The love, the peace, and joy, but I only get to see.
But I wait and pray for all these to someday become mine.

Confusion has become a constant companion of mine, but one I try to rid.
The hardest things in life to fight are the things you can’t see, but only feel.
I’ve felt like giving up and when change started to come that’s when I hid.
When I find something amazing and good  I wonder is this for true? For real?

I wonder about so many things that have been strangers to me.
I’ve watched others around and see their light of life shine,
Wishing I had it too. The love, the peace, and joy, but I only get to see.
But I wait and pray for all these to someday become mine.

I know, so many dark thoughts and so many worries I allow in my head.
But even still, I take courage in my faith, and I have a kindling hope.
I know I am strong enough to over come, even with all this I have said.
My heart still beats, my body still breaths. I will find a way to cope.

I wonder about so many things that have been strangers to me.
I’ve watched others around and see their light of life shine,
Wishing I had it too. The love, the peace, and joy, but I only get to see.
But I wait and pray for all these to someday become mine.

I have the choice not to let myself fall, I won’t let the darkness win this round.
With every dawn I know I have a chance for this to be the day I could win the war.
We must all try to fly every now and then, but it’s gravity that pulls us to the ground.
I’ll stay strong, even when I feel weak. I’ll endure and someday I know my spirit will soar.

Yes I’ll stay strong even when I feel weak,
I’ll stand even when I feel like I’ll break.