Topic: What did I get myself into?
Since Christmas I've really been battling my anxiety/lack of confidence in myself. One of the things I did was to start attending a song circle held once a month. I would play one song and that would be it for the day as I would be so wound up from being out in public I would quickly retreat to the safety of home. That's not a bad thing cause in my heart I really want to beat this disorder (one day at a time they say). My problem is the person that was hosting the circle is the director for the Home County Folk Festival. Over the coarse of the 4 months I played when it was my time to play and on the last day she asked me to play 3 of my songs at the Home County Festival. I crapped my drawers and told her I would think about it. I explained my issues and she said no sweat...but please think about it. Two weeks ago I decided that I had to give it a shot so she set me up with a Mandy player that really liked my songs and wanted to work with me. I'll only have two practices with him as he is busy. We will be playing July 17. Home County draws 150,000+ people for the 3 days and I'm really getting bad vibes about this. I know it is in my head but I need all the help I can get on this.
Should I bring a barf bucket and stash it in my truck? lol I'm booking a weeks holiday before so I can relieve the pressure I get from work.
Any help/advise on this would help me out immensely as I'm sweating just typing this.
Cheers
Kenny
PS Here is the link to this years addition of Home County.
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