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Topic: Empty and Alone

As I lay here in this bed feeling empty and alone,

I want to call you and ask you to come back home.

Sleeping beside you and caressing your skin, listening to you sleep like I did when we began.

Feeling the movement of your body as sleep sets in makes me ask myself why why was I so????

As imperfect as we may seem

I love you so much

I just want to lay here and scream.

I know you are here because of the kids

I know certain times I've not been able to give you that you need

So the minute you leave I lay and my body feels cold,

I lay here and Shake

I lay here and think of how I ache.

And then I sit here but I think

of how good we feel when we're together and the lights are dark.

And then my mind See's you with another and it breaks my heart.

Then I sit here and the guilt sets in, 

instead of bringing my thoughts to you,

I tossed them away on meaningless tots.

Your kiss this morning,

so soft and sweet. I didn't want you leave. 

I know you have spoken to your friend by now, 

It hurts to think is that is the first thought that comes to you

I may be wrong, but I can't tell when you say I love you . 
I know you do. But how much is still true?

You have every right to ask the same.  I have no excuses for my actions of the past.

You have said that you were not able to set that aside. Or not willing. 

As I lay here in this bed feeling empty and alone, I want to call you and ask you to come back home.

“Find your own sound.  Dont be a second rateYngwie Malmsteen be a first rate you”

– George Lynch 2013 (Dokken, Lynchmob, KXM, Tooth & Nail etc....)
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Re: Empty and Alone

Beamer ... that's powerful moving stuff. The power and vulnerability of personal regret is gut-wrenching, and I felt it as I read what you wrote. Bravo, dude!

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Re: Empty and Alone

Thanks TF.  I hope you read the other one also.

I have a third but I wanted to let Phill look and see if it was acceptable to put on here.

As things go, we are still under the same roof and trying to maintain a likeable friendship while being semi separated. 

I told her thanks fo rthe pain as it is a wicked mean MUSE.  and that i never thought I would write something like what I have about us.

“Find your own sound.  Dont be a second rateYngwie Malmsteen be a first rate you”

– George Lynch 2013 (Dokken, Lynchmob, KXM, Tooth & Nail etc....)
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Re: Empty and Alone

WOW, that was totally gut wrenching! Having been there, I feel your pain and understand better now the meaning of your collection of songs and poems. I know from the break up of my first marriage how wretched and abandoned you must feel, because that stands out a mile in your epic work here my friend. You may feel you're off loading, but what a brilliant way to do it.

I haven't opened my email yet and look forward to reading your next installment, I am always available if you want to get stuff off your chest more privately. Phil Collins first solo album was inspired by his marriage break up. Every cloud and all that.

Ask not what Chordie can do for you, but what you can do for Chordie.

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Re: Empty and Alone

beamer wrote:

Thanks TF.  I hope you read the other one also.

I have a third but I wanted to let Phill look and see if it was acceptable to put on here.

As things go, we are still under the same roof and trying to maintain a likeable friendship while being semi separated. 

I told her thanks fo rthe pain as it is a wicked mean MUSE.  and that i never thought I would write something like what I have about us.

So sorry to hear that these are personal experiences for you, man ... feel for ya. Thanks for your baring your soul, and please know we're rooting for both of you during these tough days.